kannamma to krishna - outburst

why have you

invaded my life?

to bring joy or suffering?

laughter or tears?

either way

you are successful...

you say 'life is beautiful'

for both, is it so?

in one side i find beauty

but bondage too

other side

i see only my frailty

that emotion's heaving waves

toss me so mercilessly

me a boat without anchor

in your carelessness

do you know the effect you have?

do you know this storm

you generate is tearing me up?

that your casual words

spoken or not

live on and

relentlessly occupy my thoughts

so that to free myself

i pour out these lines

but i can only thank you

for the joy

not blame you

for my suffering

for you the storm is

just a game

i'm the unsteady boat, no anchor

i hold back

not because i hesitate

to ride the storm with you

just i don't want to drown

it won't bring me

to my destination

but

if i see you suffering

waves forgotten

i'd drown to save you

and perhaps, it's too late

between this storm and

your unraveling me

already i didn't know the way

now i'm that confused

i don't know up from down

whether i sink or float

whether you will

drown me or

travel with me

so that we reach together

you asked me my soul

but how to give, its yours...