kannamma in confusion

if i think of you

my peace goes

but you tell me

to think of you

and I can't not

my poem rings in your mind

but do you know how I feel?

you and your words

haunting my thoughts?

you open yourself fully

but keep a detachment

if i open fully

i'll become totally attached

already it happens

so suffering

you don't cause my suffering

only I can

but it hurts none the less

i knew i would suffer

for the joy you bring

i asked and still ask

if its worth it?

but i can see only

the next step

not where it leads

walking in darkness

can only guess

guessing yes..

you demand more openness

claim i'm holding back

know your words and mine

carry different meaning

your tune I've yet to grasp

you i don't understand

won't make conclusions

then blind..

how to fully trust?

and sometimes i doubt

what game you play?

a boy you won bowls

now a man,

what's your trophy?

but the mind

doesn't rule

so i keep opening

i don't even know why

that's the wonder...